Man Shocked to Find Charles Manson Is His Real Dad
(HMG) — It’s a natural impulse for many who are adopted to investigate their biological parents to help understand their background.
When 41-year-old Matthew Roberts set out on his quest, he never could have imagined what it was he would find.
Given up by his biological mother soon after his birth in 1968, his father told him he was adopted when he was eight, but always refused to answer his questions about his parents.
Only now does he understand why the truth was hidden from him.
He eventually contacted his biological mother Terry through a social services agency and she revealed his given name as Lawrence Alexander, but she refused to reveal the identity of his father.
But after a series of pleading letters, Terry admitted the truth: she had run away to a hippie commune after being seduced by Charles Manson, the notorious cult leader, despite warnings from her father that he was a “white-trash biker bandit”.
Terry claims she was raped and impregnated by Manson during a drug-fueled orgy before she returned to her family home.
“I didn’t want to believe it. I was frightened and angry. It’s like finding out that Adolf Hitler is your father. I’m a peaceful person – trapped in the face of a monster,” Roberts said of when he found out.
He was horribly depressed at first, finding himself unable to sleep or eat.
Manson has sent 10 notes and postcards to his biological son since contact was first made seven years ago — all of them signed with the Nazi swastika.
“He sends me weird stuff and always signs it with his swastika … I’m not nuts but I’ve got a little bit of it. It’s scary and upsetting. If I get worked up, my eyes get really big and that’s really freaked some people out before. I’ve tried to tone that down quite a bit. I don’t like having that effect on people.
“I don’t even like the fact that I’m big. It makes me even scarier. My hero is Gandhi. I’m an extremely non-violent, peaceful person and a vegetarian. I don’t even kill bugs. I’ve had long hair all my life. I could make it go away, but I can’t let the world and their fears change me.
“He’s my biological father – I can’t help but have some kind of emotional connection. That’s the hardest thing of all – feeling love for a monster who raped my mother. I don’t want to love him, but I don’t want to hate him either.”
